Still Waiting

Saturday, July 01, 2006

feeling very sad now. today was a very simple and nice day for me. cy, ed, hui n cai came my house and watched scary movie 3. then we will cook dinner together. tt was wad happened briefly. before that we went to buy the birthday present for cailing, her very first BIKINI~~~ hahaha.

well. just cant help but blog out these sad things. haiz. those thoughts just went thru my mind. thru these 5-6 years of our friendship, i am always the one who organises outings and stuff like tt. and i tell u.. it IS tiring. secondary school days wasnt tt bad, we were mostly free n only jy had a bf at tt time. somemore we were to young to hang out too much during the hols.

until we were sec 4.. o lvls ended, search for jobs are completed are all of us are working part time. life betwn the 5 of us is a little strained, esp for jy n the rest of us cos she was working with her mum and we seldom get to see her. ok. lets fast forward to jc life. starting of jc life still alright, we are still as close as ever, maybe except tt we are split into diff classes so our lives started to change a lil. yes...of the the co pple (cy, me, hui n jy) get more chances to see each other.. so the other 2 felt a lil left out..

ok lets fast forward again to june 2005. hmmm. this is the month of mugging i still remember. cai got a bf last time too, n i just broke up with mine. haha, my so called bf. so tt period of time i mostly stick to my usual frens (cy, hui n cai) but jy n wt seldom join us for such stuff. but as least they made the effort to join us for half a day or wadsoever.

december 2005. i already have a bf tt time. and i have been hanging around him for almost everyday of dec. haha quite guilty to say tt i didnt organise any girls outing. at tt time cai was with henrick oso, so i bet she was quite busy during tt time too. oso, wt was with tze for quite smetime and jy is still with lawrence. hui is busy with her fam outings and class outings. so i didnt organise any outings and obviously no other girls organised them. when school reopened, they told me they were waiting for me to organise. my first thought was.. one day if i die, u all dun ever need to meet each other le rite? i bet. hahaha

ok. so ever since den, those tt were a more diff part of our grp drifted away, further n further. ssad to say this rite. haha. and im sooo sick n tired of organising such outings. make sure every girl will be present.. den make sure free for the whole day.. have to postpone if 2 or more cant make it. and seems like theres not much initiative done as well. how tiring can it be. haiz. at the last min, some cannot make it cos they have something planned first and tell me the day b4 they didnt noe got such outing on. haiz. feel really sad. and also, having to ask thru a friend abt the situation n life of other friends. haiz. im tired n sad. but if i dun organise such stuff, who will? who?

i can just say.. be prepared to drift away.

-when are you coming back? ;